Teared up when my kitten started drinking water again. She’s getting better. God is good! Thank you!
As of now..
i wonder why i feel this way. and as much as i want to feel different about it. I cant. Ive tried everything. maybe its me, not having hope that my next move to make it better will even work. maybe it just me doubting, but does doubt have that much POWER. idk. I just want to feel like, what im doing is the right thing and i want to feel like im on the right road to where i want to be. I keep getting mixed up and stuck in the middle. thoughts run through my head like..Is this just one of those times i need to stick it out through to the end or.. are these feelings signs that i should devote my time to something greater. im fearful. “what ifs” literally turn my stomach, i hate them. so many possibilities. Right now, i believe that i need to trust in God. Surrender everything. Keep faith. Forgive. Give. Expect that anything could happen at any moment but most importantly trust that God is with me through it ALL! He has a plan and what im going through is so relevant for his plan. I just want to surround myself with Godly people and positive beings. Where im at now, i cant keep my head up. but maybe thats my challenge. keeping my head up through hard times. such a mystery. What a wonderful lesson and value he’s trying to instill in me. truly grateful.
My first boyfriend
Relationships are not easy. So happy I have a boyfriend that talks everything out with me.
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Life is good, but yet.. I’m still not satisfied, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing! I’ll just keep striving for the feeling of being totally satisfied with life. Im doing pretty good so far. My relationship with God has never been so strong, i realize nothing is perfect, happiness is a choice, done sweat the small stuff and yolo jk lol Im so proud of myself. <3
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Got any good ones?!
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Haven’t had a day off since Wednesday, and idk when my next day off will be!!! -_- On the bright side, ill get hella money! I just wanna relax when i have time off. but feels like i cant even do that. I just wanna chill and tumb, and fb and tweet and creep on ppls profiles lol. i also wanna go thrifting. its been SO long since ive went shopping forreal. ugh. I noticed i get easily stressed, hehhh. i have no patience. im tired. im annoyed. I just need ONE day to me self, with no one to bother me, with no distractions. I need time to meditate. Time to listen to what Gods been saying, I’ve been praying and asking God for answers alot more lately! AND I havent reallly took time to sit and listen to his answers. UGh, Im too young to have such heavy feelings and thoughts. Most likely there lessons to be learn but its jusss so frustrating. I litterally feel like im the only one thats going through this. which probably isnt true, well. Yeah. im gonna go shower and draw in my bed while watching cartoons til i fall alseep. anyways.. night everyone in the Tumbmosphere ;)
Hopefully i get this job at the Mall! Did a trial run today, it went pretty well. Working at a kiosk is so demanding. I can be a pretty shy person but I always push myself to step out of my comfort zone. BUT DUDE. it fucking sucks working at a kiosk sometime. i feel like people are just expecting you to scam them or something. So their automatic response when you’re trying to talking to them is ” NO THANKS!” or “Fuck naw nuggah”..lol so its hard to make sales. But our product is actually genuine and a reasonable price! whtevur ugh and my feet hurt and honestly the crappy lights in the mall gave me a huge head ache!! >.< but chyeahh, hopefully the lady hires me.. so i can have extra cash on the side!………jello
Tonight’s one of those, Lets order a pizza and watch Anime all night, kind of nights.
i just want to be single. For a while.